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The doctor placed his hand on your shoulder.

"__________, we have to go," he said checking his watch. "The barometer's dropping. There will be a cold fluctuation in the temperature soon."

You didn't move. You only remained kneeling by the place where Ludwig and Gilbert laid beside each other. Gilbird remained perched atop his old master's gravestone. He was always a smart little bird.

"Gilbert…" you murmured. "The last thing I said to you was that I hated you. I didn't mean that. I've always loved it when you…When you…That's funny. I can't remember. I can remember your voice. You were always so loud, and yet I don't remember the things we did together. And Ludwig…I know you were always there for me. I loved you—no—I still love you, and no matter what, I promise I won't forget that."

A chill wind blew through the yard. Sensing the doctor's urgency, you placed your hands onto the brother's graves and bowed your head.

"Thank you," you whispered. "You've done so much for me. Thank you both."

"___________, we really have to go now," you heard the doctor say.

"I understand," you said and stood up without any help. Then, after taking a final look at the graves, you called Gilbird onto your head and walked back to the car.

During the car ride back to the hospital, the doctor took the liberty of explaining more things in detail.

"It's been, what, at least a century since you were last put to sleep." He chuckled. "A lot has happened. Let me tell you, in the last—actually, I think politics are the last things on your mind, aren't they?"

You didn't say anything.

The doctor sighed. "I'm sorry you've had to go through with all of this, __________," he apologized. "The Beilschmidts have apologized over and over again for what they've done to you, but they truly did this to you for what they believed to be in your best interests. Ludwig couldn't bear to lose you. Gilbert…when he turned the two of you in, he had hoped to save you. He, as well as Ludwig, knew that your body was incomplete, and without the proper attention, your everlasting life would not have made it this far. It took this long for us to fix your body, for technology to catch up with their research."

He took a moment to pause for you to take everything in.

"That being said, I never had the fortune of meeting the Beilschmidts, myself. It was my grandfather who knew them when he had been the head director, and he had passed the story onto my late father. After everything's sorted out and you get used to your new body, we can talk about what the Beilschmidts left you."

You remained silent, only moving to blink and stroke Gilbird.

After a few weeks of rehabilitation and checkups, the doctor gave you permission to leave—except you would have to be wary of the temperature in your given environment. That was something the bioengineers and doctors also couldn't fix.

"Before passing on, both of them wrote memoirs about their time with you," he said while helping you gather your few possessions. "The memoirs have been published and have been considered some of the highest documentation in scientific feats known to humankind.

"You get to keep their house along with all the profits they would have made through the breakthroughs and awards. They thought it was best that they give you as much of a future as possible. Copies of their books are also waiting in Ludwig's office.

"Your digestive system now has the ability to digest any type of food. No more lukewarm water or weak soup. Also, you may have noticed that your mobility has greatly improved, courtesy of the company and the evolution of science and engineering. All of your organs have been perfectly replicated to the cell so there should no longer be any rejections. However, since your memory is still not recovered, you might experience some migraines. Be sure to contact us if you have any problems." He handed you a small card with the name of the bioengineering company and a few numbers printed on its face.

"Is there anything you wish to ask before I take you to your house?" the doctor finally asked.

You shook your head. "I'll try to manage on my own for a while."

"As per requested by Ludwig," the doctor added, "everything in the house is fully functioning and taken care of. He also told me to send you daily groceries to your house when you woke up again."

You couldn't help but smile. While Ludwig had been cold, he had always been thoughtful.

A few goodbyes and last words later, you bid the doctor farewell and headed into the house you had spent so much time in many decades ago.

This time, the drapes were pulled back allowing the sun to pour in like liquid gold bathing the house in light. The old smell of potatoes and wurst had completely faded, yet the bars remained installed into the walls.

"Gilbird, doesn't this feel familiar?" you asked your pet as you explored each room hoping to regain some of your fuzzy memories. When you came to your room, you saw the shelves of dolls still sitting in place, untouched. There wasn't a speck of dust to be seen in the house as no one had taken up permanent residence for such a long time. After setting your old doll back on the shelf, you stepped back to admire each and every one. It was funny how Ludwig and Gilbert had named their project after your hobby. Even to the day you had woken up again, they hadn't forgotten that.

Next came Ludwig's office. You didn't have too many memories of being inside this particular room since the place had usually been off limits. On the desk, there was a small stack of hardcover novels with the title "The Weight of Porcelain." The covers were all white save for the title and the names of the authors, the people who had been your friends and family when you had none.

You turned to Gilbird. "Fancy a little bit of reading?" you asked him.

Gilbird grunted.

After sitting down in Ludwig's chair, you were about to open up the first book when you noticed something glistening in the sunlight. Upon closer inspection, you remembered the name of the object from something that Gilbert might have told you: a ring.

You smiled a bittersweet smile. Had you not been in the accident, you would have aged along with Ludwig and Gilbert. Somewhere along your life, Ludwig would have proposed to you at the right time, and you would have all grown old together with Gilbert telling your children about all of the times he had been awesome. Alas, such a life never happened. You could only look towards the future as an entity trapped inside a never-aging body.

Taking a deep breath, you flipped past the first blank pages and began to read of the detailed passages that Ludwig and Gilbert had tediously put together in account to your life's existence. All the while, you felt a small lump resting on your shoulder. Gilbird was looking at the pages from above as if he could read, too. You wouldn't be surprised if, at his age, he could.

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"How bad is it?"

"It didn't turn out as well as I expected. I didn't think it would, but I didn't think it would be this incomplete. Her motor skills are out of sync, and her nerves aren't accepting all of the organs."

"We did the best we could."

"It's not enough. She's going to be in a lot of pain when she wakes up."

"You knew that there could have been far worse things that could have happened when you agreed to do this. Did you really think about what she might think of this when or even
if she gains consciousness?"

"As long as she lives, that's all that matters."

"You're not the one going through the pain."

"I know that."

"This is why love is so unawesome."

"Stop lying. You love her, too."

"…Not in the same way you do. At least I have my boundaries."

"Whatever happens, I'll be with her. Even if she doesn't remember me, I'll stay with her until the end."

"You do realize what might happen if this is successful, right?"

"…Yes, but I still want to give her a future."

"That future could be forever."

"I know."

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"___________, if you can hear me—and I doubt you can—but I want you to know that no matter when you wake up, know that I still love you. I always have, and that fact will remain true long after I pass. It's too late for us to do the operation, and I don't think you'd want to spend the rest of your life with an old man.

"I've made some mistakes along the way, but know that I did it all for you. When you awake, Gilbert and I might not be here. Gilbird will be the only one left from your past. Keep him close to you. And since we won't be around, know that I'm sorry. I'm sorry for putting you through all of that pain for so long. I'm sorry you'll have to live in a world where time has moved forward, but you have not. And…I'm sorry for being selfish. Maybe you didn't want this kind of life. You will have to see many people pass on before you, yet you will also build up many more memories when they fix you.

"___________...Know that no matter the time or the place, we will always keep you in our hearts. The future we have given you will be our final gift to you. Use it well, and try to be happy.

"...Goodbye...and sweet dreams."



The End

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Thank you so much for reading~

-GydroZMaa
Thank you for sticking with me until the very end, everyone. :iconarigatouplz: I hope you had as much fun reading this as I did writing this.

On a side, someone pointed out that the song, "Porcelain" sung by Marianas Trench goes very nicely with the ending of the story. I suggest you listen to it once you're done with the story.

The last part of :iconcrazycharlette1415:'s contest prize.

Axis Powers: Hetalia and its characters belong to Himaruya Hidekazu.

Any similarities to characters, settings, scripts, or stories from other pieces of literature or media are purely coincidental.

This story belongs to me, *GydroZMaa.

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WoodElf101 Featured By Owner May 13, 2015  New Deviant
great now you made me cry
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner May 14, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Ah, I'm sorry. ^^; 
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Madoka-Watanabe Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2015
JFC IM BAWLING
QAQ
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13th-Program Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2014  Student General Artist
Too good... So good...
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you. :thanks:
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13th-Program Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2015  Student General Artist
you're welcome :D 
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lnfluenze Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Ah, I figured some late-night reading could help with my temporary case of insomnia, and it did! I didn't expect to get teary-eyed though. ;w;
The idea of the experiment was certainly interesting. But truthfully, Id rather be dead. ;D;
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Ah, sorry about the teary part. 
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NuclearDisaster Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
I didn't came here for you hurt my feel ;w; 

Btw,breathtaking.That's what perfectly describe this story :D
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're very welcome~ Thank you for reading!
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rheddkid Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2014
The feels :iconcryingplz: it's overwelmhing. I can't take it. Your stories always surprise me. I mean when I started reading it I thought reader-chan (or I) was just some type of a scientific experiment that Ludwig created and fell in love with but no! -@ It's a story about Ludwig and Gilbert making a scientific breakthrough that defies the law of life. I really love how this series was created. It's one of my most favorite series now all over da (hell all of your stories are great) Keep creating more stories \o/ Thanks for letting me read such a wonderful story.
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're very welcome~ Thank you very much for reading~ :thanks:
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eykchung Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2014  Student
Wow.  That was amazing yet so sad...  Though it was really cool how you incorporated the idea of cryonics into your story.  It made for an interesting suspense, sci-fi mash-up of sorts (Am a sci-fi nut :icongermanyfacepalmplz:).  Great job.
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Daww, thank you very much. :thanks:
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eykchung Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2014  Student
No problem, I can't wait to read your actual sci-fi fic.
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Aphy-Taffy Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2014
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NONONONONONOOOOOOOO

GOD DAMN
I'VE READ THREE OF YOUR READER INSERTS SO FAR AND TWO OUT OF THREE HAVE SUCCESSFULLY BROKEN ME
WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh gosh, I'm sorry... :worry:
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xXDubstepzAngelzXx Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm literally crying my eyes out right now. I have literally NEVER cried while reading a book, I'm usually hard as nails but this? This just flipped the swtich. 
This story is so extremely touching and very well done and the ending really really gets to the readers considering the 'attachment' between them, Ludwig and Gilbert in the story.
Very well done, very well done indeed :happycry::clap::heart:  
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Aww, I apologize about the tears, and thank you very much for reading the entire thing. :thanks:
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xXDubstepzAngelzXx Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh no, it's quite alright ^^
And no problem c: 
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watashiwaanime Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
This my dear is one of my /favorite/ fanfics. I read it a long time ago and actually remembered the name (I have a terrible memory) so I came back and reread it and it's just as amazing as the first time I read it ;w; and the end made me cry once again XD but still *applauds* this was wonderful.
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Aww, thank you very much for taking the time to read this story once again~ I'm glad you still like it. ;v;
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mycornerofrandomness Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
This story, my friend, it's like Gilbert would say, AWESOME! It made me cry at the end and honestly everything was so well planned and constructed like at the beginning I thought that you intended for the reader to be a country and somehow was in an accident that made her loose her memories and left her in a very sickly state but then I thought she was some sort of experiment gone wrong that lost  her memories and that Ludwig had fallen in love with while taking care of her because he was a scientist of a scientific facility along with Gilbert and decided to  take reader way because he thought it was inhumane so Ludwig took reader somewhere else and Gilbert was helping them cover because the people they worked for were trying to get reader to go back to some scientific facility, but then you explained what happened and it was so much better and it made me cry because it was so tragic and beautiful at the same time... like Ludwig not wanting to live without her and doing that along with Gilbert to keep her alive and then taking care of her and just refusing to leave her side but then them dying and her waking up all those years later and finding out what happened and what Ludwig wrote for reader to read... it just killed me... like it was so powerful.  
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
E-Eh...Thank you very much. ^^; 
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Misfit-outcasts-o-0 Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2014  Student General Artist
i cant stop crying!!
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I'm soo confused but that cute story tho be killin my feels soo much moe in Luddy.
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SoraLyv Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2013  Student General Artist
I just read this entire story in like a half-hour. I couldn't stop, it's so good! It's so deep and thought out, and SO heart-wrenchingly sweet!!! A million thumbs up and much love for dear Germany and Prussia! 
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh, wow, that's fast! Thank you very much for reading the entire thing, and I'm glad you enjoyed it! ;v;
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Jellikat Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013
I'm pretty sure you killed me and all my feels... This was a very bittersweet experience
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Sorry about that...
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Jellikat Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2013
Don't be, it was a great series :D 
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Aww, thank you. ;v;
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Nemurenainda Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2013  Student General Artist
That... was unexpected. OAO

When I started the story, I had thought that perhaps Reader was a country, and something had happened to her to make her lose her memories. But that theory hadn't explained why she had been cooped up and coddled.

When the pills were introduced, my theory changed to Reader being a clone. I thought Gilbird was a clone as well.

When it was finally revealed, it was one of those "mouth slowly gaping open" sort of revelations. "Oh... my... God."

It was a bittersweet story, and it speaks to me about the idea of how Ludwig had tried to protect Reader, but had, in the end, been the ultimate reason for her dissatisfaction with life...

:iconbravoplz: This was definitely one of the deeper mini-stories that I have read. It's amazing how potent the story is without going into every detail.
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Aww, thank you very much for reading the entire thing. I'm glad you enjoyed it. :iconhappytearplz:
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NinjahClaus Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Man, I thought Reader-chan was going to sit on their graves, and let the temperature take her away to Ludwig and Gilbert. ;n;
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh man, that would be terribly depressing. ^^;
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NinjahClaus Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
BUT IT'D BE THE PERFECT ENDING ;n;
A perfect kick in the feels!
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I don't think so.
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NinjahClaus Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Awww.... well, you're the author. Maybe I read too many depressing endings for Reader-chan.
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CandyBlueStar Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2013
This... This is amazing!! You are one AWESOME writer!!
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Daww, thank you very much~ That means a lot to me! :iconcblushplz:
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CandyBlueStar Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2013
Your welcome xDD Continue writing bro!! :3
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karinchan97 Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2013  Student General Artist
*speechless*.........
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CaptRedgrave Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm emotionally wrecked but my goodness that story was just absolutely beautiful.
And I think I have to call it quits for the internet and go to bed now...
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Aww, I'm sorry. Thank you for reading, nonetheless. ;v; Goodnight, as well. 
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AwesomeDragonSlayer Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Student General Artist
awe man I'm crying....(such a beautiful story) 
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Aww, thank you for reading~ Sorry about the tears, though... 
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AwesomeDragonSlayer Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2013  Student General Artist
I wasn't wailing, just a tiny bit of awesomeness was leaking out...... '3'
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Lizardhero123 Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2013
Cricket: Very well done... *sniff*
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GydroZMaa Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you~
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